Some time in the middle of the past summer I had a phone interview with a big-shot new england university library. They were in the middle of opening an Information Commons (a bookless library for you non-library types) and were hiring a recent graduate to head the department. They were looking for someone energetic and computer & web savvy. I was so excited to have the opportunity just to talk to them (they’re that cool)–let alone get an interview.
I studied their school and memorized my CV for hours. And when the interview came I totally bombed it. I sounded like a broken record, repeating the same concept no matter how many different ways they phrased their questions.
And I knew when I hung up that it was the last time I’d hear from them.
Disappointed in myself, I held my chin high and laughed it off and remembered that “God always has a plan.”
And really, God came through. I’ve got this amazing position that keeps me plenty busy. Although “Library 2.0” certainly wasn’t in my job description, I’m implementing what I know, and have great confidence in what I’m doing here. This job also kept us close to both of my families and made planning a wedding the slightest bit easier because I didn’t have to do it from across the country. I certainly don’t envy my friend who aren’t able to talk their mom into coming to lunch with them when they’re having a bad day–a slightly more difficult endeavor when it involves a plane flight.
But something has been haunting me about this the last few days. I would have been great at that hot-shot library. I have so much to offer. I would have been a rock-star adjunct at their Library School. I ached to move across the country and start a new adventure.
I’m just not sure how to let it go.
And so it goes.